You know that exhilarating feeling you get when you find out something really exciting? Something that truly rocks your world and promises to take you on an entirely new path, and yet you have to keep it a secret from everyone around you, including within the walls of your own home? Something that occupies such a large part of your mind all. the. time. that it is hard to focus on anything else, but you absolutely cannot, will not, should not, let it slip? That is exactly how it has been the past few months not telling our friends, family, and you guys that 2 months ago we received truly incredible, amazing (and any other synonym for these words) news: we are expecting!!!
One night last September I went to sleep feeling truly fulfilled after a beautiful day surrounded by family and friends; the next morning I woke up and my world had changed. I don’t mean changed like I got a new haircut or decided to try red nail polish instead of pink. I mean changed like on Saturday morning I was unmarried and still felt like a kid myself, and by Sunday morning I was married with stepchildren!
Now obviously this didn’t exactly come as a surprise, but it definitely was a serious revelation. How did I go from having zero kids to three in the blink of an eye?? I always thought I would MAAAAAYbe have two. I would see people out and about toting three plus kids and I would cringe, thinking “What, why!” I could never imagine that someday I would be one of those women dragging three children through the grocery store after a long day at work begging them to stop fighting and pick a cereal already.
And yet here I am. And while I still have to pinch myself to see if this is really, really real life (it is), I am so blessed to be a part of these kids’ lives. I am honored that they want to hold my hand when we walk, they want to snuggle up with me every time we sit on the couch (they actually fought over who got to snuggle with me during a movie last night. I mean…I can’t), and they even gave me a few trinkets on Mother’s Day. If you have read anything, you know this most definitely brought tears to my eyes…I am such a softie. This is not to say that life is all rainbows and unicorns, it’s not. Being a stepmom is hard. Learning to care for kids, learning to be patient and learning to be strict when necessary, is hard. I’m not complaining, this is just a reality. But I consider myself blessed every day that I am along for this ride, that I get to be a part of their lives. I am in awe at how fast they are growing up, and how sweet they can be (don’t get me wrong, they have their sour moments too, they are kids after all). But most of all I am blown away at the depth of my love for them, and am so excited beyond words to see how they each create their own life stories.
Another day to celebrate my mom, and she couldn’t deserve it more!
I love you, and am so grateful I have you in my life to look up to.
On another note, introducing…
What is this, you ask?
I want to spend a few minutes each Thursday (everyday ideally, but only to post on here on Thursdays) sharing a few things that I’m thankful for today. This is just one more practice to help me stay focused on the positive, and the many, many things in my life that make me blessed and happy on a daily basis.
Today I am thankful for…
Today is a rainy day topped off with a fire in the fireplace, hot soup, a blanket and the couch with my husband and catdogs; just what the doctor ordered, and just in time for Friday eve. I am thankful for the opportunity to take a night to relax, to spend time with my husband, and for this much needed rain. I am SO thankful that tomorrow is Friday, and the kidlets and their natural chaos will be back with us for the weekend. I’m thankful for my mom on her special day, and so glad I will get to see her in a few weeks to celebrate in person.
What are you most thankful for today?
Thank you. Thank you for being my mom, day in and day out, through thick and through thin, and for loving me despite and because of it all. Thank you for inspiring me, for teaching me, for letting me be me. You are a role model, a friend, and regardless of my age and any amount of distance, you will always be my mommy. You will always be the one I want to comfort me when I’m sick, then one I turn to for advice, and the one I call when I have any sort of news, good or bad. You are my favorite shopping partner, and one of the most fashionable momma’s I know. You are a best friend to many, and have taught me by example what true friendship means. You are a strong, independent woman; you are truly a beautiful person inside and out. I am so blessed beyond words that you are my mom.
So thank you, Mom. I miss you more than words can say and wish you were down in San Diego with me this Mother’s Day, but know I am with you in spirit and am always counting down until I see you next.